Cigarettes 112 thru 140

It's been a rough couple of days. I worked Fri, Sat, Sun, and yesterday. Fri and Sat weren't bad, but Sunday was a real bear. We had a ceiling to tear down in a pool room. Six hours of hammering above my head, catching the heavy chunks of ceiling as they come dow, being covered in insulation, having to wear a mask all day... yesterday, Mon, it was all I could do to get thru six hours of easy work, my arms were so tired. 

Didn't bike ride yesterday. Or meditate in the afternoon. But that's all right. I am finding as I strive to do things nowadays, I can trust myself to keep doing them even if I miss a day or two. It didn't used to be like that. It used to be, if I missed a day, that would probably be the end of it. I'd just find excuses not to do it 'til I lost interest or forgot about it. Now, I'll yearn to do it enough to find the time, or wait 'til there is time. 

It's hard to keep track of smokes. Especially during work, when it's so easy to light up when there's a lull in the action, without even thinking about it. And I haven't been reading my list of reasons before every cigarette.