10:44 am

I guess when I thunk this whole thing up, it would be fun and games, documenting my experience like I'm some kind of research dude. Yeah, it's getting a little hard to think. I just took a two hour nap. Actually, I was in and out of a doze for two hours. Thinking about buying a pack when I was awake. Dreaming about buying a pack when I wasn't.

It becomes hard to justify quitting, as if I'm denying myself something instead of gaining something. As if I'm making some sacrifice by quitting, instead of the sacrifice of my health, time, and money if I smoke. Things are backwards. Doing the wrong thing becomes a reward, doing the right thing is torture.