Monday, May 26, 2008

Cigarettes 17 thru 25

I just wrote a whole long post, and the freaking thing disappeared. I hit save as draft, and it's gone.
To paraphrase: 
It looks like I've given up for today. Surprisingly, I'm smoking less than I normally do. That's what counting does, it let's me know where I'm at. 
Am trying to get rid of clutter. Trying to reduce the amount of stuff I own. As in Buddhist philosophy, eliminate grasping and desire; realizing the less I want, the more I have. Realizing also that smoking is another form of grasping. Another want. 
Went for a long bike ride, over an hour. Did my five minute visualization, ten minute meditation. Cleaning up, getting rid of stuff. Getting ready to do some painting. There was so much more in the post I lost about simplifying, and I saw it just disappear. A half hour typing, down the drain. Depressing. I think I'll smoke.  

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